You seem to be playing games
It sounds to me like you are playing games not only with him, but with yourself. You made the statement that you were hoping you would change your mind. If you really wanted to change your mind and be with him in an intimate relationship, you would have changed it. Hoping that your mind would change sounds absurd, almost as if you were hoping someone else would do it for you!
You sound young, and very confused...and you also sound like your leaving a lot out of the story. How did you meet this guy? How far away does he live? What makes him a great friend, but not a guy you'd want to be with in a serious intimate relationship? What are your REAL FEELINGS? It seems like you are lying to yourself and trying to convince others that the way you feel is real, when it really isn't real at all!