And then it Happend!

[number_1_Morena]

Okay what up everyone?

Well a while back I wrote a topic about long Distance Amor. And everyone said to me goods things and some that I didn't understand.
Well the truth comes out he cheated!

He wrote a letter to his mom and asked me send it out for him. Well in the process of me getting out of my car and all the crap I had to carry it fell into some water. So I had to change everything. Rearranging the letters and making them actually fit He has written a letter to this female. Saying things from it kills him inside that he can't see her. And it pisses him off even more that he can't see her. And hug and Kisses are to many to write about.

So I confronted him. It took him about 20 minutes to give an explanation on why he did this to me. And guess what he said he was drunk and tried to look good in front of his boys and in front of his brothers. I always thought that if you are with someone and you say you love this person wouldn't you look like a really big man to say hey I already got a lady waiting back at home for me what do I got to Prove to you?


But he didn't! And he has always said to me he would never be the one to hurt me. And look what he did. He seen the pain in my face when the tears started to fall when I had to ask him for then once to tell me what happened. He felt my pain when he tried to hold me while I was crying holding onto my pillow because at that time I didn't want him near me. I asked him to just leave alone for a little while and he said he couldn't do that. And that it killed him to see me in so much pain.

THEN WHY DID HE DO IT?

I can only say so much because everything will be about 2 pages long.
But he promised me that he wouldn't hurt me like the father of my girls did. He said that what we had is special. Now look at us I can't even look him in face let alone be near him 2 minutes top.

Before I found I about this he had asked me to move to Puerto Rico with him that it would better maybe for the both of us. Why would he ask me that if this was going on?
While he laid there next to me hearing me cry and feeling me shiver inside and outside he asked me to go again. He said but I am going to do what is right. What would be right at this point?

Nothing can change the past or what he has done to give this horrible pain inside of my body. But I am a really strong person and I will deal with this in time things might get better or maybe not!

I am not writing this to get a pity comment back or anything. I just really needed to get this out one more time before I finish my questions with him. Because he is leaving in about 2 weeks top. I was crying hard when all this happened could anyone image how I am going to be when he leaves again?

Thanks for listening!

[Corazon_Roto]

Hola...Dont go with him. It will be a mistake. If he really loves you and wants you, he will give you some space and time to get better over the bad things he did. Then, if he really wants you in his life, he will send you tickets for three from PR! On his behalf, maybe he will try harder, maybe he is sincere, but you need to let him know that he can only SHOW you these things not tell you them.

Just dont rush into something bad again. Think of yourself first and then your kids. Everything else will fall into place!

Does this make any sense??

[This message has been edited by Corazon Roto (edited 22 June 2000).]

[Boricua_Princess]

Please read my message to you with the same subject under "Open Board".

[number_1_Morena]

Thanks Corazon Roto:
Well he will be payin if i do Decide to go out there. I really think I am Going to Get my life back on track here in Chicago. There so much I need to Do and while he is gone it will give all the time I need to Think about this. I mean there was a little part of me that didn't want to trust him and all his words but he made me believe that he would never hurt me. so in reality it is going to take me some time to get over this. I must say He has become the man I use to know. Now he wants to talk and cuddle when all I want is some space. But he is leaving sometime next week. That is going to be soooooooo hard for me to watch him leave. But it is for the best at this point.And I fully understand why you said don't rush into another bad thing!!!!!!
Before i go how is yur marriage going things still kindda LOCO..I think all things good and bad happen for a reason we just need to open eyed to see what the reason is.
I really think you can make it through this.
Thank you..

Boricua Princess..
Thanks for your words in the open board.
I know this pain nobody deserves but sometimes it happens. Things start off completely right then something goes wrong. But it will be a while for an update...
But don't stop writing i enjoy your words...

thanks again soooooo much!!!!!!!

MORENA