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    Eddie,
    I started this thread to address any questions you may have about anything. My family, my job, my politics, my problems, my etc. I am thinking you do care about me on a human level. That last post in open board convinced me of that. I am grateful you wrote it. Go ahead and be direct about anything at all. After you get your answers. You can make any decision you are comfortable with about me. Choose whatever you want to happen with our online acquaintanceship and I will follow that decision. OK?

    If you don't want to ask me questions....since I have 'burdened' you with my family problems....I hope you realize when you said that....I realized you care about me and my family. And what happens to us. So, for all effects and purposes you have every right in the world to ask questions. You are not the unjust Maitreyas as you say. You deserve honest with no vascilation answers. I will give them to you. If you want answers. I am taking a risk with you. But I think I have already been too revealing in this medium anyway. Whatever consequences happen because of it. I have to have the maturity to accept it now. All actions have consequences don't they? I got to accept mine.

    Don't think me arrogant, haughty or cruel Eddie. I have never, ever been that. Truly. Are you filled with point blank questions? I will answer them all...if I don't it is because I don't have the time right away...but will get to them. Eventually. And hmmmm. I beg to differ with your assessment of me as the hardest kind of woman to change...do you mean an emotional woman? I write with great attention to constructing words in a way in which feelings are easy to detect and percieve and identify with. I do that because I enjoy playing creatively with emotionally charged words. I want to write creating characters Ed. And good writers dominan el idioma suficiente para crear atmosferas emocionales. I did not know I was doing a good job until I started getting feedback from people like Jose NEstor, Letty, and others. You, on the other hand don't critique literature or writing and keep comments of any emotional nature brief. Though I have gotten hints you do feel what I am writing about through a couple of comments you have made over the years. One of them has been that line about the fragrance of my husband's skin from one of the old philosophy threads....long ago....I thought, "Why did Eddie remember that?!" I even forgot I wrote that. And then I realized. It was an incredibly sensual image. And it captured a certain feeling we have all had in life. I made an impression there.

    Why mention all this? Well, I think all that experimental writing on this forum I have been doing, has made you have doubts about my ability to be reason based and logical and scientific. And might be an impediment to me accepting Marxist and Leninist and Maoist thought about society and economy and politics. That is not correct. I hope you also noticed my rational and analytical side....too. And I hope you see I have a sense of working with reason too. And letting reason be the leader in my chariot....you are extraordinary Eddie. I hope you decide to continue this thread with me. I leave March 12th...won't be back for atleast a week or more. Don't know how long it might take so I can't predict. But I will be back and see how you are faring on pr.com.

    Please give me a sign that you read this. And that you understand what I said. ANYTHING you write with honesty, I will read and I will answer any question, ABOUT anything at all con honestidad. Hey, I have been fingerprinted, processed and grilled these last few months. Who I am is an open book to the powers that be. I won't mind tough questions from someone like you Eddie. Someone who I realize now, really does give a damn if I live or die.
    Suki.

    [Edited by Suki on 9th March 2004 at 20:23]

  • #2

    Where to begin, oh yes as you suggest with point blank questions, and I do have one, even though I am darn tired with the royal battle I am having with GingerAlex and her TERRORIST ORGANIZATION. So I will try to make this brief, if not terse for sure.

    First let me say, that I opine that Stan the Physician is capable of 'bracketing his foolishness' and being professional with you about the health problems of your husband. I know,...I know he was callous and insensitive in the extreme about your marriage issue of getting children, and even wanted to give instructions to your husband on how to have sex with you. However, that issue was not really a health issue, since not having children does not mean that a female is unhealthy. You appear to be quite healthy with all the meditation and exercises you do daily. The exercise it seems flows over to your husband too. He must exercise each and every day to maintain the proper weight and muscle tone for his height. And there has been no indication from you that he is overweight, but is instead right for his height and body type.

    Now, after the bombshell of your announcement that he has a brain tumor, you found that he is losing weight, what because he needs too as being overweight and continues exercising but is now losing weight?? I say this because you are not naive about health issues, and you have proved that by many posts in which talk about such things, and also about the proper diet and naturapathic remedies also. Even a layman like me, who is at times quite hermetically sealed as to my emotions, was alerted that losing weight is a serious sympton when one has a pre-cancerous condition. I say farther that no doctor in his right mind would ask your husband to lose weight when he has a tumor. But you hinted that your husband doesn't want to say yes or no with respect to the fact that he must have brain surgery. He doesn't want to alarm you perhaps. And I think you said if what he is doing is alright with him, then it is alright with you. Ooops, not so. You got to take charge; it is better to know and deal with the issue, since you are still not the one who is seriously ill. And anyone with a tumor intercranially, even if it is still benign is at least seriously ill and needs others to guide him.

    I think it would be prudent that you not ignore anything about him, even if he wants you to. Really, I had hoped that Stan and you could have put your differences about politics, social issues, and economics aside, BRACKET THEM ALL FOR THE DURATION, and that he would have offered sound advice. He seemed to be disposed to that when he heard the bad news by what he said about the precancerous, and how he asked you immediately whether the tumor was intercranial or external on the head. He showed rapid interest in a medical way, and in one of his latest posts still seems to tend to want to help you, if you would just bracket the other stuff, and not get angry with your memories over how he has treated you and your mom in the past.

    Ufff!, if I go on anymore, I will get exhausted. But this is to let you know that I am here, and will return later after I rest and get some light and nourishing food and beverage into me. C ya later tonight Suki, after 11PM probably.

    Till then I remain,
    Eddie R.
    E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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    • #3
      Eddie,

      My husband loves bread and butter...and many things of that nature. And he has gained a little weight. About 20 pounds since last fall. I also think he is allergic to wheat. But he doesn't want to accept it. He loves his pan frances and super cargado cafe latino in the morning. He reminds me of another Puerto Rican gentleman. Lol. YOU. With the coffee.

      Since he is doing a lot of Aikido and trying for a black belt with a personal expert on it, who out of liking for him gives him one on one attention and throws him to the mat having the excess weight on him makes the falls uncomfortable. I told him he needs to cut off the carbs. And see if he is allergic to wheat. He stopped eating wheat for four days. And felt much better. His sinuses cleared up. And he lost 4-5 pounds. In terms of his brain tumor Eddie. It is bad news. And good news too. His tumor is not growing. It is staying stable. But it is located so deep in the brain the doctors say it is extremely dangerous to operate on. And he will have to live with it. Or risk some serious consequences. I never would have known about it or he either. If he hadn't have to have had a CAT scan to determine if his head was affected in a rearender accident he had a while back and the insurance company of the other guy hadn't insisted on evidence before paying for his 'pain and suffering'. In the CAT scan the tumor showed up. They told him and he went in for additional tests. We didn't know if it was growing and or cancerous. I was freaking out over that stuff. As you know, he is so forgetful about little things. Keys and getting the wrong ingredients about groceries I write on a list, forgetting debit cards in places, not remembering PIN numbers to ATM cards, lots of stuff like that. I would scold him for his lack of memory and I felt so bad....thinking maybe it was the tumor that was affecting it, and I was blaming him for something he could not control. He lied to me about telling me it wasn't important. That it would disappear by itself. I think he did not want me to worry about him too. Like I had about mom. And he was afraid that would impede him being considered for fatherhood. Oh Eddie, I would stick with him no matter what. Es el amor de mi vida. And the only man I have ever been with. Let me not get too emotional. I know you think it kind of foolish. So, I approach the subject of getting him to see specialists. He refuses. I don't know what to think. Should I force the issue? I pay a lot to have him on my health plan...it is the only real reason I stay where I am. I can make more money somewhere else. But it has a good health plan, and I like my co-workers and my boss is very nice. Not like that other tipa loca....from some other job I had. And that one paid more too. But this job atleast has really good dental insurance and health insurance. Though this year it went sky high, with less specialists...such as what he needs. I think I need to call in the troops. Mom and the entire family to pressure him to tell us what is going on. It might be I will have to accept it is inoperable. But the doctors told him that there are people who live their whole lives without trouble with tumors that are benign but unremovable.

      GingerAlex I told you she was rabid statehooder loca. But no, you had to take her side...I was being hard on her. Lol. GingerGringa wants to kill populares. Military minded statehooder brainwashed woman. I did not like her comments about her not being puertorriquena. And her other nutty commentary. But hey, I know you did not know the woman.

      Anything else you want to know, I will answer Eddie. About Stanley. He won't say anything another doctor won't say, and he is impeded by not having the Xrays and the additional information.

      You may ask anything in this thread and I will answer you. I promise. I wish I could do the same to you. But I know I can't. See you later tonight.




      Ginger gringa w

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      • #4
        Well, the least first: GingerA.. At the time I had not read her terroristic post, perhaps you had done so. But the issue was complicated by your angry attacks on Da_Realest who I knew to be a black man, who was expressing his personal experiences of persecution from racism for being a black man. And when he spoke the sorrowful words of don't judge him until you have walked in his shoes, I was convinced that we were dealing with a poor deeply hurt human being. He was seeking help and confirmation of his pains over racism whereever he could find it. He felt the P.Rs were not aware that they too were on the road to being racists, and actually classified them as such.

        But he did not take into account their minority status AND the fact that they are a colonized people which the blacks are not. Yes the blacks were once slaves, but never colonized as a nation. He spoke quite calmly and cooly for a black under a storm of criticism and even word bashing. That is why I said what I did to show some empathy with his plight, although I don't agree with his views on racism.

        Okay, as to GingerAlex, my feelings that you were too sharp and biting to Da_..., almost giving me the impression that you were against the blacks, but not a racist since you are a member of a minority that is being discriminated against daily by the real racists who have political and economic power over all the minorities, carried over to your calling GingerAlex names that were derogatory. And it was all connected on the same issues. Later when I read her terrorist stuff I realized that here was an issue that was humungous in its evil proportions. And have since confronted her with my views on what she has done on the forum, and the consequences of it.

        If she is just a pig-canine, lying female dog, who is trying to make fools out of us, it doesn't matter because her name and posts are recorded by the War on Terrorism unit of the Home Security. And once that happens, even if it was a joke on her part, which by the way she has not admitted to its being, her life will be compromised in everything she does. She is known to the enforcement authorities and they never forget, and only when she is dead will her files with that agency be archived for good. She is one hell-of-a-fool to do that at this time-line in history. Now, if on the other hand, there is something concrete in what she and her organization is doing, and she is actually recruiting then she is dead anyhow. Her name seems to be Jennifer Lemotte, or something like that from her email address. Does that sound to you like a Spanish name? To me it sounds like an Italian name. Who knows she might be a fascist, or an anarchist. BTW, I never inquired of you what you think of Fascism. If you will, I would like to read someday what you think of that form of gov't that has played a role so prominently in our life times.

        Now, as to your husband, IMHO you should not "force" anything. But as his wife you have a right to talk to the doctors who examined him, and then you can verify that what your husband told you is either accurate or not. That he actually was able to put on 20 pounds of weight is good news. In cancer and precancerous conditions, the loss of weight is the clearest indication that the patient is in big trouble with the illness. Most cancer patients, untreated perish from starvation. The bad cells consume all the protein and vitamins that the patient gets from food eaten. So watch his weight closely. And don't forget a phone call or two to the doctors who discovered the tumor.

        I hate to say it but Stanley's new scan machine might be something that is even better than the scanner used to detect your husband's tumor. It is sad that it has come to this, i.e., that the Boricua who is a physician and has the latest technology is like an enemy to you. Why to you, I can't understand? To me his being a political enemy I can understand, since he is a virulent anti-communist and red-baiter. However, he has had some of his fangs filed-down by me, and parts of it removed by his debate with Comrade Jaakko and other Commies on the Politicsforum.com.

        It seems he will never understand communism nor our freedom and sure freedom, and that is why he resorts to religionism and faith (hypocrite that he is} in order to fill in the dots. It is all trumped up by him and totally non-valid.
        E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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        • #5
          Eddie,
          Yes I had read the Ginger person's weird posts. She is totally into violence. And confessed her father beat up her mother while she was growing up. Now, she has made very discriminatory remarks about 'non-Americans' such as Filipinos and others...about getting the hell out of the USA if you don't like it...and other fascist commentary of that nature. I read all that before the Da_Realest commentary of yours. I also happen to think I know DaRealest from another African forum. And I know he likes putting down minorities that are not Afro-American for kicks. I have no anger against Afro-Americans. In fact Corvo is an African studies expert. El Negrito is also black. And I love African cultural studies. El Negrito, Corvo, and Joshue who is mulatto boricua all find him arrogant and narrow minded. And they are all black men living in America. So, if I have issues with DaRealest I think I am justified. I think you came in cold to the thread and just read a little of Darealest and not all his nonsense posts in their entirety like I have been doing. I recognize his style from an African board. I love going and learning about cultural things.

          I talked to my husband last night. I wish you could meet him or talk to him over the phone like Letty has. He is such a gentleman and so easy to talk to. Anyway, he is a bit stubborn. Or let us tell the truth. Very stubborn. Lol. And I got him to agree to see various doctors. I feel relief now. Mom is doing so well. She is involved in a project now with a lot of enthusiasm, and typing away on proposals for funding. And wants to travel with us to Yucatan later on in the year. I want her to have a good time. She deserves it. I hope she does not read this, (I want to surprise her). I find the communist forum on politics.org very informative and dynamic.

          In terms of fascism Eddie. Ask away any specifics. I will answer those too. Thank you for your excellent suggestions. I won't force the issue. I will call los doctores instead and make it seem like it was all his idea. You know nosotras las mujeres somos buenas haciendolos pensar que fueron ustedes que iniciaron todo...lol.

          You are not timid or shy at all are you Eddie....

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          • #6
            Originally posted by Suki
            Eddie,
            Yes I had read the Ginger person's weird posts. She is totally into violence. And confessed her father beat up her mother while she was growing up. Now, she has made very discriminatory remarks about 'non-Americans' such as Filipinos and others...about getting the hell out of the USA if you don't like it...and other fascist commentary of that nature. I read all that before the Da_Realest commentary of yours. I also happen to think I know DaRealest from another African forum. And I know he likes putting down minorities that are not Afro-American for kicks. I have no anger against Afro-Americans. In fact Corvo is an African studies expert. El Negrito is also black. And I love African cultural studies. El Negrito, Corvo, and Joshue who is mulatto boricua all find him arrogant and narrow minded. And they are all black men living in America. So, if I have issues with DaRealest I think I am justified. I think you came in cold to the thread and just read a little of Darealest and not all his nonsense posts in their entirety like I have been doing. I recognize his style from an African board. I love going and learning about cultural things.

            I talked to my husband last night. I wish you could meet him or talk to him over the phone like Letty has. He is such a gentleman and so easy to talk to. Anyway, he is a bit stubborn. Or let us tell the truth. Very stubborn. Lol. And I got him to agree to see various doctors. I feel relief now. Mom is doing so well. She is involved in a project now with a lot of enthusiasm, and typing away on proposals for funding. And wants to travel with us to Yucatan later on in the year. I want her to have a good time. She deserves it. I hope she does not read this, (I want to surprise her). I find the communist forum on politics.org very informative and dynamic.

            In terms of fascism Eddie. Ask away any specifics. I will answer those too. Thank you for your excellent suggestions. I won't force the issue. I will call los doctores instead and make it seem like it was all his idea. You know nosotras las mujeres somos buenas haciendolos pensar que fueron ustedes que iniciaron todo...lol.

            You are not timid or shy at all are you Eddie....

            No, not really timid nor shy; what ever gave you the impression that I might be? LOL

            Well coming right out with it, as is my wont, I think that Da_Realest is not arrogant, but that he is narrow-minded and even closed-minded is probable. To be arrogant, he would have had to show on the forum that he thinks that he is superior to everyone else there, and by 'ende' condescending towards them. That he has not shown; he has remained remarkably calm in the face of a storm of criticism that has come upon him for his errors about Puertorriquenos.

            Heck, I have discussed with Blacks in other forums, where they mostly will unleash a string of Mother F.uckers, and white co.ck suckers etc. at those who criticize them on the issue of racism. Bleep, bleep, bleep...is generally their modus operandi, just like in the ghettos and streets where they live and hang-out. One hears that all the time and on the Forums, too. Another thing I have noticed and this includes whites also, is that if they have been treated harshly at work or any other place, they come home to take it out on their wives and children. Yes, their own families, and applying that to Da_realest, perhaps one can say that he wants to kick around another minority group for what has happened to him and his group. Hell, he is treating the Puertorriquenos as FAMILY in that sense. Poor guy, give him a good meal and lots of patience and he will come back to his senses, just as the whites do in their contratiempos with their families.

            Great to hear that your Mom is doing so well!!! And yes it is diplomatic of you to tell your husband that you said you had his approval when calling the doctors. If he says, when did I say that, or no I don't think so...you can tell him you thought he did. A little white lie never hurt anybody. And most important you will get the data you need to take charge with confidence.

            Fascism, you responded, well I suppose the point-blank question should be what do you opine about Adolf Hitler as a one-man ruler over everything in a gov't that is fascist? I won't ask you about fascist ideology, because I am certain that fascism is not an ideology; it is merely a form of gov't. There is no real fascist philosophy like there is a communist philosophy.

            I know the fascists resort to the writings of the "crazy one" Nietzsche, but he was never a philosopher, but a social commentator on the ordinary man of the street, and even their guttersnipe views and pretensions to be super thugs, which the Nazi translated as the Superman or Master Race. How pathetic, eh?

            C ya' later on this evening Suki, if you wish.

            E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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            • #7
              Suki,
              Well when you mentioned the Ghetto and vulgar language etc. It made me think of Stanley's thread that Letty erased. Stanley said I was a ghetto lowlife and etc. I found it funny. I mean first I am a burguesa and then I am a lumpen from el caserio. Lol. He is all confused.

              Now, domestic violence is part and parcel of people feeling powerless and exploited at their work places. But not only that. It is also a symptom of losing control. You mentioned your Dad taking you out to the woodshed and beating the tar out of you as was the custom and how he grew up to discipline you. These parenting classes we have to attend...my husband and I, they talk about all these issues. Me, I can count on one hand the amount of times I was spanked by my parents. My mother only ever hit my sister and I.....once....one time. And I remember it clear as a bell because it was the rarest thing in the world. I bet she does not remember. But, my sis and I were fighting in Puerto Rico in the back of the volky and mom was driving us to the grocery store. I must have been 4 and my sister almost 7 years old. And we were bickering loudly and hitting each other in the back seat (I don't remember what the issue of contention was), but mami kept saying "Callense, que me estan volviendo loca con tanta gritaera." She told us to stop fighting three times. On the fourth she did not say anything....she pulled the volky over and took my sister and I's heads and then banged them together and we both started crying and she said, "Ahora si tienen algo pa estar llorando y gritando je!! Con el chichon en la cabeza van a poder dejar de gritar." Alma got into more trouble than me usually. Era mas traviesa. But corporal punishment was so rare Eddie. And light. Two smacks on the bottom and a regano y mas nada. And a while later, all was ok again. It was very rare that Papi would use that and only when we were little and what he said was the stage of 'lack of reason'. Lol.

              I have many more good memories. So many. He used to like my salads that I would proudly present to him for him to eat...when I was six years old or so. I would make them colorful with red beets, and yellow corn, and peas, and carrots and lettuce and tomato...and the reddest red vinegar and olive oil....I loved the color of it all. And he would sit there and say, "Que ensalada mas preciosa Vida. Lo hicistes todo por mi verdad?" and I would say, "Si, todo para ti Papi." And he would eat it all. My mom would read me stories of Hector and Achilles and the battle of Troy and Sparta....she would make it so interesting....and bring me books to color the characters in. I would ask why the males in the Roman times wore dresses and she would explain they weren't dresses but Togas. And how nice the Mediterranean climate was, and that would lead to questions about geography...and so on. In the parenting class....people that start talking about so many sad things....unknown fathers. Drug addicted mothers. So much struggle. I experienced some pain and things. But I was so fortunate Eddie. So fortunate.

              My parents grew up dirt poor. And in ghettos. My father by his widowed mom...and his brothers were at least twenty or so years older than he. He was el regalon sorpresa at the end. But both had insatiable desire to learn and do something to better the community. That social consciousness spark and motivation. I see that in you too Eddie. They studied. And worked. And never were class conscious, how could they be? Si ellos eran pobres siempre. Pero pobres con educacion...Eddie. Y con inteligencia y espiritu de lucha. That is a threatening thing in this society. Poor people with experience of poverty, working class identities and educations and knowledge and a thirst for social justice. Also something I see in you too. The rich and the middle class....they just want to keep the status quo. And they suck up to whoever. But the proletariat with experiences and education and consciencia. They are the ones that make things happen. That is my opinion.

              Hey, fascism. Germany was ripe historically for what happened. Too much neglected sectors there. After losing in WWI and the German economy in shambles, and Germany not having the siphoned off wealth and colonial exploitation histories of Imperial countries of Europe like England, Spain and France....and the German working class thirsty for justice of some sort.....manipulation again of feelings of nationalism, and of being 'kicked around' by the victor countries in WWI....plus many other things. I know Hitler went after the Communists with a vengeance....for they were the voice of reason, organization and would never have gone for the wholesale genocide and for state sponsored capitalism and priveleges and Master Race theories of his.

              Hitler, though, was efficient, organized and since he was Commander and Chief, and he ruled fascist style. No voices of dissent. And kill off the opposition. Many thoughts I have of him....I think he was an opportunist. Not brilliant but clever. And no single person causes the murder of millions. It is done as a society with the consent of many. That is what many don't get.

              I think the Red Army with their sacrifices stopped that German madness. And I am deeply grateful they did. It was a terrible price to pay. I hope the future generations make better choices and honor their deaths.

              I love talking to you like this Eddie.

              C ya later too brigadista

              Suki

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              • #8
                Thanks Suki for telling me what you think about Hitler. But one correction I want to make, and here I activate my major in History, which I have too along with majors in Philosophy and World Lit.. To wit, Germany did have an Empire like England later had, and now America is trying to have. That Empire was known as the Austro-Hungarian Empire, which included Germany as the 'brains' behind it all. The Kaisers of Germany were like the Tsars of Russia, and it was a huge militaristic empire that was only broken up by the First World War. It was the Weimar Republic that Hitler excoriated more than any other thing that was German. He was from Austria, as you probably know, and made Austria one of the stars of his Third Reich. I'm surprised, however, that you think that Hitler was a clever man, and by ende a 'saavy' leader.

                Upps, I see that you had a Puerto Rican upbringing with corporal punishment that was traditional also. But in your case it was quite mild. Lucky you. No, my Father never brought me to an actual "woodshed", since we were urban dwellers, but he hit lots harder than your Mom did. To this day, I have a prothesis, an implant in my lower lip where he had delivered a resounding blow to the jaw. It loosened my bottom teeth so that I could even move them around with my fingers, but the worst was that it wounded the membranes of my lower jaw so severely that the membranes failed to heal normally and so a Doctor had to implant a prothesis around which the membranes could grow. To this day, I can feel with my tongue the prothesis below the membrane tissue. That's a souvenir of my Puerto Rican upbringing.

                BTW, Stan was strange when he mentioned the so-called levels of the middle class bourgeoisie. He seemed almost ashamed and indeed reluctant to discuss that. My acquaintance with the divisions are that the bourgeoisie comprises the rich as the highest level, and the very well payed executive and staff at the center level, and the well payed office employees at the bottom level. The proletariat are of course a different class entirely, as you know. My analysis of that division among the bourgeoisie led me to the knowledge that what typifies one as a bourgeois is the LIFE STYLE OF THE BOURGEOIS and not the pay scale or special bonuses that are sprinkled at all levels in that division. But if you wish, I will get into describing that life style at another time. It takes lots of orientation to perceive it, and it helps to read the novels of Balzac which includes his most famous one of "Pere Goriot" as well as all the other ones that he wrote. It was the French bourgeoisie that brought the life style into prominence in the world. Curious isn't it that Francois Noel Babeuf, the first authentic communist in the world was a Frenchman too? But according to one of the laws of nature that Isaac Newton discovered: Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. How true that is.

                If the time permits, we may be able to discuss this farther. And if you haven't read the novels, perhaps reading at least Pere Goriot would be very useful for you understanding what the bourgeois style of life is all about.

                One thing more about GingerAlex, she says she speaks many languages, and also mentions Sweden lots as a place she is familiar with. The nightclubs and eating habits, etc..I was wondering if her 'case' isn't more serious than I thought, as if it ever could be. Since if she is residing in Sweden as Jennifer Lamotte, claiming to be a Puertorriquena, it is possible she may part of an International Terrorist organization, like the one the German federal police tried to break up in Germany according to the most recent time-line. Many of the terrorists included Germans and many other nationalities like Arabs and who knows Latin Americans by descent like GingerAlex also. If an International Terrorist organization is operating out of Sweden and targeting Puerto Rico that is very, very bad news. The weirdness of her posts are not so weird as you may think. It may be an International well-planned terrorist operation against the U.S.'s weakest link, the colony or unincorporated territory of Puerto Rico. On this!, I will meditate, to be sure.
                E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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                • #9
                  Eddie,
                  I never said I thought Hitler was a savvy leader. I thought the man a mediocre student and a bad artist. Lol. But he was clever in knowing how to manipulate the German military machine and make it serve his 'propositos'.

                  The news about your prostesis.....Ay, Eddie. You're killing me. Polio, and prostesis, hunger, deprivation. Hospital stays. And knowing your character, I have no doubt as a youngster you would get in hot water with your father. But, to hit you so hard as to cause membrane damage...hmmm, I wonder what caused him to perder los estribos with you? My husband also got punched in the jaw by his dad. It knocked him out. But it was because he had taken off for a long time to go exploring with some other little boys his age and they made a makeshift raft and got lost in some rio near the beach for hours. His mother was frantic and they called the cops, and when he showed up dirty and hungry late at night from his boyish adventures....his father was livid and worried to death about him and he just lost it. Later he felt so bad and apologized.

                  His mother did more of the disciplining. And he was punished a lot. She finally thought him incorrigible when he got expelled from eighth grade for too much fighting and disruptive behavior in school. I know why he was. But that is all I am gonna say. But she made him finish all the way through college. Fear of disappointing her was strong in him. She was a traditional boricua from Utuado. Who moved to Santurce.

                  PLEASE educate me about Germany and all that. I don't really know much about military histories at all. I truly don't. My father was in the Air Force as a young man. He entered as a private and left as a private. Mostly a negative experience Eddie. A lot of racism, and Old ignorant Southern Boys as petty officers who loved hating Puerto Ricans from the East Coast...my father looked very WHITE Eddie. People in the Air Force would talk the worst things about Puerto Ricans and Blacks in front of him. Thinking they could get away with it, that he wasn't one of 'them'. And he would curse them and tell them off. He never brown nosed or sucked up to anyone. And he became more and more leftist in the military of all places. This is in the 1950's of course. He was fascinated with war stories though. As a little girl though I must confess I did not demonstrate much interest in all that combat, and stories of Kamikazes and stuff. To me, it just was some kind of male bonding thing I could not relate to. Lol. But now, I see it as very interesting for it has to do with strategy and tactics. And I see its interest in a historical sense. I really wish you would fill in the gap of my education about that too. I meant an Imperial type of history estilo....colonies in Africa, and in America type of dominance...for Germany. Sure I knew Austria was part of the old Military Weimar territory. Beowolf and that ingrained since Roman times military interest that the Germans always displayed. Los godos, los visigodos, los alemanes....always military minded. And good at engineering later on. The volky I got achichonada in, an invention of Hitler "the People's Car"....and lol. The emblem is of a wolf and a castle and a river or moat surrounding it. That ancient Wolf tribe symbol part of the German elite. I think the Schloss "Castle" in German...hmmm. You have sparked an interest there.

                  You are right about GingerAlex. She is very strange. Might be more than what I initially thought. Statehooder says she likes the 'socialist' Swedish lifestyle. But rejects traditional Puerto Rican things. BTW, I read your statement of hating Rap, Hard Rock, etc. I AGREE WITH YOU 100% that music really sucks.

                  In terms of Burguesia....you think as a low level office employee it is the lifestyle that defines it all? How about the years when I studied and scrubbed toilets for a living at a Plastic Surgery Hospital?---where I befriended an Afro-American woman from the deep south with 6 kids divorced...and she is still a great friend. Or the times I worked as a cashier as a department store employee? Or my husband cleaned offices and garages and delivered papers?...and worked as a factory worker and almost hit the manager there? Or many of the PROLETARIAT jobs I have worked over the years? Or working in a milk store? Or until my feet ached bussing tables? Does that count? Eddie, I have no 'image' to uphold of etc. etc. I was taught, to do what I had to to pay my bills and work. And just because I read 'intellectual' things, did not make me special. If you are looking for someone on this forum to be like Ruben Berrios with some prestigious education and track record...or some sign of burguesia. I aint the person. Put on the label....if that is what makes sense

                  You can think what you want to about my lifestyle. I like writing about pleasant things. Like in meditation. Positive timages. And frills. That is my style. My reality.

                  If you want to write some more about Germany and your endeavors in WWII, I would be honored to read it all. It is great history.

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                  • #10
                    [QUOTE]Originally posted by Suki
                    [B]Eddie,
                    I never said I thought Hitler was a savvy leader. I thought the man a mediocre student and a bad artist. Lol. But he was clever in knowing how to manipulate the German military machine and make it serve his 'propositos'."

                    Did not you say the following: "Hitler, though, was efficient, organized and since he was Commander and Chief, and he ruled fascist style."

                    That's what I mean by saying a savvy leader. And the word although jargon does apply to what you said about him, so in a sense, what you said means that he was saavy and of course clever. But was he really all these things that you think, and was Germany only a truncated empire when an Austro-Hungarian one. No, I think the evidence shows that Germany did have an imperialist interest quite extensive in Africa like Belgion and the Dutch did. Moreover, why did the so-called allied colonializing powers like England and France, and later the U.S., single out the German Empire early in the 20th century as an enemy against their special interests in the world? The first World War was the result of that by the so-called allies, and of course, they blamed Hitler, THE POLITICAL IDIOT, for causing the second World War when he did not. It was already in the hopper, since the conditions were established in the Peace Treaty with Germany after the first World War.

                    My-oh-my, why did you take personally what I said about the divisions of the middle class Bourgeoisie? I told you it was the product of an objective analysis that I did on the Division, which led me to the conclusion that what makes one a bourgeois (not you personally as the only one) is the Bourgeois Life Style, and not the pay scales nor perks which the proletarians never see or get.

                    Of course, you worked at labor jobs, and I never said you didn't, but your main work is at a level with people who do live the bourgeois life style, and you know what it is, and even reside for many years in Colorado which is a state that has transformed rural life into a paradise for the bourgeoisie.

                    I don't want you to get personal about what I said, and I even asked you to read French literature on the bourgeois life style, because that is were it came from, as mundane as fine French bread or their exquisite cusine.

                    Later....same time same internet address, if you wish.

                    E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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                    • #11
                      Eddier1

                      I learned something new from you AGAIN...you never disappoint me. Maybe that is why I like reading your posts so faithfully. Please elaborate on what the reasoning behind the rise of Hitler was all about. I really liked the line of questioning and reasoning you were digging into there.

                      As the the Ski bunny paradise of Colorado. lol. I only went skiing once in Colorado at age 13---and did not like it at all. It was with a series of Native Americans mom was working with one an ex-olympian who had too many hot toddies and hit the slopes with me to 'teach me the ropes', I did not go to the beginner slope or anything. The drunk dude done took me to the big mountain with no skill at skiing whatsover, and pushed me down the hill....I picked up speed at a vertiginoso rate and did not know how to stop and screamed to the top of my lungs in panic as the dude whizzed by me and left me by myself. I spotted a big bale of hay and headed to that hoping the horrendous speed I was going at would stop if I hit the hay. I hit the hay allright. Hard. And the skis flew off and I lost my breath. And I swore right there, I aint gonna ever try this crazy sport ever again. Anyway, in terms of living here Eddie. This state has a lot of poor people as do all the states. And if you want the burgueses they is in Aspen, Boulder, Vail, and in the suburbs like Highlands Ranch. My neighborhoods were all raja tabla neighborhoods lleno de mexicanos indocumentados, negros, y blancos with used baseball caps and dirt under the fingernails. Lol. I am being facetious (but it is truthful), I was probably an anomaly there too, some puertorriquena with my interests in the middle of the milieu I just described. I have realized not to take anything you say about that to me personally.

                      I want to work in my field. Write and do political work as well. And raise a family. A balance of activities. I would like the read what you stated about the french definition of the burgues life.

                      I will be going to Mexico tomorrow. Lots to do today to prepare. PLEASE take care of your health beautiful Eddie. I could say so much about what I have learned and gained and such....and let mi corazon write you the prettiest words and letters to you. But, I would rather hear your renditions of the circumstances surrounding the rise of the Political Idiot Hitler. I forgot the detail of Hitler having only one descended testicle....lol. Oh, my I forgot to mention that the man had male insecurity problems. No....lol. I love your analysis of the circumstances of WWII. I still remember you mentioning titanium being the reason for the Viet Nam war. I hope you realize I remember everything you say about history with great attention.

                      If you write something. I will reply today late at night if I can. But I would love something earlier in the day.

                      May I give you a big kiss de despedida? For being such a dear and caring about mi familia.

                      Beso grande para ti,

                      Suki.

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                      • #12
                        eddie,
                        Would you like a detailed description of the train? In which so many things have happened for my husband and I? I can write about it to the tiniest detail so you feel like you are there with me? And you see what I see? I will describe it to you. Te gustaria? It has some spectacular scenery. And don't deny you like scenery and landscapes...you do. I can tell.

                        If you want we can take the train ride right here together...dear Eddier1....esta bien? Just say yes or no.

                        And you can keep it like a postcard (un recordatorio)....since I can't send you a real one. I will send you one by writing with great care with descriptives? Que te parece hombre?

                        You have travelled so much and have finally settled down over there where you live. How about taking a train ride with me right here? Hoy por la noche? Si o no?

                        C ya soon.....
                        Sukita

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                        • #13
                          Originally posted by Suki
                          eddie,
                          Would you like a detailed description of the train? In which so many things have happened for my husband and I? I can write about it to the tiniest detail so you feel like you are there with me? And you see what I see? I will describe it to you. Te gustaria? It has some spectacular scenery. And don't deny you like scenery and landscapes...you do. I can tell.

                          If you want we can take the train ride right here together...dear Eddier1....esta bien? Just say yes or no.

                          And you can keep it like a postcard (un recordatorio)....since I can't send you a real one. I will send you one by writing with great care with descriptives? Que te parece hombre?

                          You have travelled so much and have finally settled down over there where you live. How about taking a train ride with me right here? Hoy por la noche? Si o no?

                          C ya soon.....
                          Sukita
                          Just finished dinner, and didn't expect to see your posts so early. But that's fine, and about the trains (not Spain's, egad! what a terroristic disaster) I got a bit chary when you started the post. I felt the possiblity of losing my supper over that. Hmmm.. But as to train travel, two which I took were my favorites, the first was the Orient Express which connected into the TransSiberian railroad and took me all the way across Eastern Europe and the Soviet Union, all the way to the Vladovostok port on the North Pacific Ocean. The other great railtrip was out of Montreal all the way across the North American continent of Canada, and ending in Vancouver, B.C..

                          About wanting more about German history and the causes of the second World War, I really don't think that it is necessary for me to do that, because there are so many good books of history that speak to that issue. One great one, on this Literature and Film forum that I would recommend is by William Schriber who wrote the momumental history entitled THE RISE AND FALL OF THE THIRD REICH. I don't really have anything to add to that, since I agree with his history book on the causes involved in leading to the second World War. Of course, this is a forum and not a textbook, so I can say here that I think that Hitler was a Political Idiot, but he couldn't in his book without being called opinionated or biased. Yet, I don't claim credit for the phrase, since I heard it first from Germans who were anti-fascists, and/or the truly 'good Germans'. And I agreed with them, too.

                          Another thing I would like to recommend, if you haven't seen it already, that the best effort to get the 'good Germans' off-the-hook when only doing their duty, was the film starring Marlon Brando entitled THE YOUNG LIONS. And finally let me recommend to you in films about the plight of the Jews to steer clear of any Hollywood productions, like that of Spielberg, the technocrap director, who is overrated, and go to all the documentaries, in black and white, and some later in color, in order to get the real picture of the persecution of the Jews.

                          Okay, I will try to read anything you post later tonight, after 11P.M. as usual. Till then I remain,
                          Eddie R.
                          E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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                          • #14
                            El Chepe para Eddie

                            One of my husband's dreams Eddie is to ride on the Orient Express. And the Trans Siberian as well. I heard there is the biggest most impressive lake in the world there, please correct me if my memory fails me....it is called Bikal. He dreams of going there and taking a train from Russia to China.

                            Anyway, I will give it my very best description EL Chepe just for you. It is short train ride. From Chihuahua City to Los Mochis, Sinaloa (about 13 to 15 hours in duration). They call it El Chepe but it stands for Chihuahua Pacifico since the ride ends on the Pacific Ocean. It starts from the Sierra. The Chihuahuan sierra is quite pleasant. It is semi-desert but it has pines, junipers and huge lakes and cascades. It looks a lot like Lake Tahoe or Nevada at the beginning. But it is unique. It really is. The sky looks a very soft powder blue. Clouds are scattered and rare. And the rocks between the trees are gray, and charcoal black and interspersed with malachite and granite, and it reflects light in a way in which it sparkles enough to cause you to look twice at it, but instead it is a rock that makes you think that rocks can be beautiful too. And lichens grow on the rocks in lime green and dark green moss colors, giving it more dimension. The dirt has either a yellowish brown color to it, or sometimes a clay-like red
                            and the air is filled with a piney smell, and a hushed sort of cement mixed with fresh ground corn and gives you the same feeling of one gets from touching a perfectly round felt hat.

                            The towns are small with horses, and tin troughs for horses to drink from, and squawking chickens, and the women dress in either the colorful full skirts in primary colors of the Taramaura Indians with leather sandals, long black braids, and delicate beaded jewelry. They weave, don't look anyone in the eyes and work silently and efficiently on their baskets and beadwork. They are tribal and very fleet. The Taramaura are famous for their serious faces, lack of talking to anyone not Taramaura, and tremendous dedication to racing and footraces of all sorts. They are stocky, fleet and strong. With deep brown copper skin, deep black eyes and very quick step. If they move they do it with grace and with speed. The train is a study in Old Fashioned design and detail. It is extremely well kept. It is a deep forest green in color with gold accents. The entire style of a train looks like trains one only imagines in toy shops. Not in real life. But the interior is comfortable and airy. The conductor is very dignified and speaks formally in Spanish. His English and French and German is peppered with grammatical errors which he does not really care to improve on. He wears a round conductor's hat (but is not a conductor) and a matching dark green suit with a little black bow tie. There is a dining car, with a vase and little green curtains, in the vase are daisies. The entire train again feels like it belongs in another era.
                            Maybe the early 1930's but the perfect film version. Not the reality.

                            The train is slow and steady and winds through the hills and tunnels of the sierra in a steady speed. One sees many things, broken down old rusted railroad cars abandoned many decades ago. Some rusted old train wrecks, from the 19th century, overcome by the rains and rusting away. The glitter of water and if it is a drought year....the pine smell is stronger and more powerful than the smell of slightly burning wood that is so common for cooking in small rural towns near the train stops. There once was abundant deer in the hills but not anymore. Hungry people had eliminated them. What remained were elegant eagles and hawks flying slowly and gracefully over the broken red earth hills, with pieces of jagged pines and trees with budding light green leaves, looking for careless mice or rabbits thin and looking for tender greens to munch on and assuage their hunger with....what was that, just a piece of bright red in the palettes of sage green charcoal gray, powder blue sky, and red clay....and the tunnel comes to turn off your picture just when you thought the red color could be cataloged as a plant. The sound of the wheels of the trains and its swaying and sighing through the tracks as it makes its way through the hard hills...soon you see bigger divides and larger widths and swathes of canyons in which the trees are farther away and the height of the track is elevated, the canyons start multiplying in depth and number and they become this unexpected planet, of infinite canyons on top of canyons as far as the eye could see, dozens, become hundreds and you arrive at Divisadero. The train stops. Many Mexican women try to sell you delicious looking things, barbecued gorditas, bean and chile burritos to go, melon juice in rich yellow and red colors. The tomatoes are very red, the lettuce very green the onion is very onion. And the women are serious in their work and send the younger folks out to get your attention...the view looks like someone opened the veins of the world and those veins, multiplied so much that one one feels like one is looking at the stars in the sky instead of the canyons that don't look like they have an ending. Left right or front or back. All canyons, like forever. There is quiet in it. A tremendous silence to it all. Every shuffle of feet, and breath you take sounds loud and out of place in such a place. The sun is soft and weak, and yet bright. You cover your eyes with your hand to see the details of the mountains better. Your breath feels out of place. Again the Taramaura move with grace and fast. Never looking at anyone directly. The train has an emblem ChePe. A red clay circle with a foot with a sandal on the foot. It looks like something the Greek god Mercury would draw, but without the wings on the sandals. And you look at the fleet feet of the Taramaura and you realize, they wear the leather straps the same as the train emblem. And their feet move so fast when they move. It looks like they fly when they decide to move....to the left or the right. That is where the symbol on the train comes from. Interesting.

                            Back on the train after the wistle blows. The landscape starts to change, less dry, and more color, almost suddenly...surprisingly. In such a short time. There are large leaves in dark green now. The muted palette starts getting primary and unexpected color becomes expected color. Fuschia, and lavender purple, and deep blue and bright yellows and flame reds, and oranges....a cascade jutting out of hard canyon wall....what is that? A banana plant huge and strong....coming straight out of hard boulder rock, the humid and more pungent smell of rotting leaves and mulchy plant life replacing the dusty and less imposing smell of pine and burning wood and light clay and and dusty yellow earth and its secretive ways.

                            The green color variations get more complex. Large leaved plants fight with viney and smaller but equally aggressive little plants, the flowers are bigger and more abundant...the water is closer to the surface of everything. The sun starts to set, the sky is not powder blue anymore it is a darkish blue, and pinkish purple near the horizon. The breeze gets soft and humid and you expect a soft rain....not sure if it will come. You hope it does...The green train keeps swaying, back and forth in gentle motions...making you feel like you are going somewhere but not with speed just with security. The sun turns an unexpected deep orange color, the air gets slightly cloudy here, less pinpoint clarity than in the sierra...you feel the next town coming even though you can't see it. You feel its arrival before it appears....It turns into night. The insects basking in the strong light all day long, whirr and flitter around in noisy circles...the train station appears....more commercial buildings. Many old cinder block constructed buildings with faded painted political slogans from the last elections of the PRI or the PAN in primary colors....ads painted in cheap paint announcing a pharmacy or a soft drink, abandoned tires and plastics litter the ground....mixed with a tang of salt for the first time....you feel the ocean is near. You smell that distinct scent of salt water in the air. It mixes with the whirring insects. And the earthy and baking corn smell that Mexico has so in its air.

                            You pull into the train station, the floor is tile and cement...little black insects everywhere...along with a soft breeze and soft hushed voices....dirt parking lot, old creaking taxis, filled with glued on Virgens stuck to red plastic dashboards, and pink, garish plastic carnations...white metal old and scraped, Mexican taxi drivers ALWAYS men only busily opening and slamming doors. The dirt is gray and black with a tiny bit of yellow on top of it...the trees tropical and bright, but with none of the expected green on the ground....the air is filled with the whirring black insects....few and far between lampposts....to light the road, it is dark, and salty the air and the noises are continuous but subtle and not insistent. After all this is a city that is small and semi asleep for the night. Did the train show you many planets in such a short time...it did.

                            For you beautiful Eddie. I hope you liked it.

                            Suki

                            I wish I had more time to polish it and perfect it and add to it. But I don't. Sleep well tonight Eddie, and may you feel light as a feather in mind and body. Til we meet again soon....

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                            • #15
                              Re: El Chepe para Eddie

                              Very enchanting Suki, your description is. Like poetry mixed with nostalgia and mysticism. At times it seemed like a dreamworld. And what you said about your husband and the largest lake in the world, yes if I recall correctly the trip over a half century ago, in which my main objective was to "inspect" the accomplishments of the Soviet Union, being a student mainly at that time of communism, I did see that lake, I'm sure. However, at that time it had not yet been given a national area of conservation like it did later. A lake where most of the animals were huge bears who lumbered down to the lake to frolic and fish at their instinct, and where all forms of flora and fauna, including the famous and unique Siberian eagle circled over all of it. Later it became the main area, like Jackson Hole in the U.S. for naturalists and other researchers to observe nature and make discoveries.

                              BTW, I am all "forgiveness" in the light of your plight. And went to hotmail.com, lol, and discovered that not only do I have your e-mail saved in my contacts list, but that of Hector's too. So I did my best to open all the addresses that I had saved so long ago. I hope you haven't changed your email address of mambera_de_primera nor has Hector changed his. If you need me for ANYTHING in the future, please feel free to contact me using my address of us103_eddier@hotmail.com. If I didn't setup correctly and you get any message of blocking please let me know immediately here on this forum, and I will do my best to correct the technicalities of freeing up your e-mails pronto. In fact, I will try to send you a test e-mail, and if it goes through, then I got it right, and not to worry. Above all don't 'force' anything, stay calm, cool, and collected in everything. You will need every bit of energy you got if there is any "contratiempo" about anything.

                              Really, I thought you were going to have more time before you left for Mejico, like the 16th of March I mentioned earlier, but now you say you are leaving today and/or starting your packing to go. In any case, if you get to read this post, but are to busy to answer, it can wait until you return at your leisure, I'm sure.

                              Bon Voyage, and may the wind be always at your back.

                              As always,
                              Eddie R.
                              E.1: TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK - V.I. Lenin

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